Friday, December 27, 2013
prisoner of war
i woke
and thoughts of you exploded
with the scent of hair pressed
to nose nestling near lips
speaking gentle words muffled
under blushing cheeks;
the intrigue of your inviting eyes
sparked ignition.
now pieces fall
like you-shaped snowflakes
onto the white bed
of an Ohio Christmas;
shrapnel cutting deep into me,
nesting under skin,
making a home.
the cannon fires again
from the beaches
of your sunlit heart,
melting fear,
and
d
r
i
p
p
i
n
g
down
sweet lips,
as a dog's tongue drips
when she's smiling
from too much play-
from too much happiness
in one day.
one day.
closer.
that is the gift
of this sleepy-eyed morning
on a blurry trail
miles from my destination;
feet guided only by the stolen pin clipped
from your chest's grenade;
the compass leading me through the tale
of my kamikaze capture by you;
of a patient imprisonment
inside the safe-house of your soul,
awaiting the day of freedom
Wednesday, December 11, 2013
let it be
i woke up this morning singing the Beatles' Let it Be. i also imagined getting the words inked onto my hand; surely somewhere between the tattoos of truth and love i can make room for the patience that such a phrase inspires.
i can think of few attitudes more unseemly than impatience: the woman tapping her foot in the grocery store checkout lane; the man whose hand falls heavy on the horn the instant the stoplight turns green.
"Let it be," Mother Mary whispers to Paul. "Let it be," he sings to us. "Let it be," i say to myself. "Adrienne, let it be."
My favorite author wrote these words to me today, as well. He asked me in the gentlest of ways if i can sit in the silence, in deep communion with myself and with another, and simply let it be, whatever "it" may be.
For me, to let something "be" is to resist the impulse to wrap my arms around the object of my attention - to resist the urge to apply force and move it, in the best sense of the word "move" - to rouse emotion, to affect passion, to move it in the kinds of ways that i like to be moved. And yet, what the phrase "let it be" reminds me is that whatever this thing or desire or person in front of me is, it is not me. it is something altogether different from me, and who am i to move it from its place.
The words "let it be" move me to the concept of "abiding." Abide is a rich word with layers of meaning. On the surface, it means simply "to accept," but as the impatience of the woman in the checkout lane and the urgency of the man honking his horn indicate: acceptance is no simple action; in fact, sometimes it requires no action at all - and that is the tricky part.
But abide also means "to bear," in the sense of supporting heavy weight and enduring. This kind of abiding is the kind that continues on without fading, without being lost.
Perhaps then, to abide is to let it be - that person, that situation, that desire, that hope, that dream, that obstacle before you, before me; to let it be and to be with it while still holding on to the lines that define the self; without losing who you are, without letting who i am fade into it, into him, into her.
These last few days i've been moving a bit slower, pausing a bit more, abiding with some truths about myself, as well as with some fears, some uncertainties; some frightening and some calming. in the end i suppose i'm also learning to let myself be, just as i am, and to believe that even if someone never comes along to move me in all the ways that i like to be moved, that there are those abiding with me too; like my friend, sitting on my couch across from me as i write this, drinking wine next to my fireplace, tapping the letters on her keyboard just as i am. Today she told me why she decided to marry her husband:
"Because being with him felt like being alone."
And with those few words, she gave me permission to feel alone and confused in those moments when i want something so badly and the universe seems to be telling me to wait, so long as i also remember that even on the loneliest of days i am, in fact, not alone, not at all.
Let it be, oh fearful one inside of me. Patience; let it be. There will be an answer. For now, just let it be.
Thursday, December 5, 2013
the gardener

drizzled with the dew of morning
as sweet as syrup touching tongue.
you've dug deep into the cavernous breast of this earth,
pressed fingers to the walls of rich soil;
prepared a place for each guest.
when i am with you i am planted.
green vines spring from toes;
leaves comb into hair, feather to the ground, falling
as longing falls into the pit of stomach,
disorienting the body's movement in a day, until
you invite me to sit at the seat carved into the dirt of your spirit,
and i am freed,
to be grounded, freed
to breath in sky, soak in rain wet with the residue of life
still clinging to my skin, as a lover clings
to love between two souls; the space held not yet
with hands, but with receptivity.
Friday, November 29, 2013
knowing, placed
of space carved into damp wood
like a breakfast nook;
a percolation
of morning coffee, made
with the heat of shared laughter;
a voice on fire reaching me, tender
newborn softness, surprising
warmth, in so small a frame
i picture you drinking, me
watching, you
smiling as it all steeps in
the world, a porous filter
soaked in this kind of knowing, placed
gingerly on a turning page.
to read your words is to see, my heart
reflected in the mirrors, your eyes
looking into me
Monday, November 11, 2013
receive
a wrinkled shirt
creases folded into creases
these are my hands
empty wanting
worn and waiting
will you fill this cup
with what i need
will its taste suit my palate
satisfy my thirst
or does that even matter
a cup of expectancy
palm upon palm
skin folded into skin
these are my hands
soft and gentle
warm and tender
open to receive
you
Friday, October 18, 2013
little star
inside your eyes, wide
a wanting, captured
in light.
did you glimpse it?
the flash.
before it disappeared
it comes as a star
shooting past the corners
of the iris,
of the swirling blue depths;
a peripheral sighting
of emotion exploding
in a mind paused,
inarticulate reflection.
it comes as a gasp
a lunging of the lungs
longing for this air
it is the gap.
the moment before knowing, unsure
of the movements of your own heart
twinkle, twinkle
can you hear it it?
the song
written on the pages
of your youth
little star.
gone so quickly, lost
in the pupil's black hole,
an abyss of uncertainty.
can you remember
what you wanted
when you trusted
what love is?
oh little star,
have i forgotten
what you are?
Monday, October 14, 2013
the waiting room
if the TV channel can satisfy
and 90s music gratifies
ears listening for sonic boom
you know you're in the waiting room
if magazines capture your mind
giving the gift of loss-of-time
to starve the heart from all that looms
you know you're in the waiting room
if magazines capture your mind
giving the gift of loss-of-time
to starve the heart from all that looms
you know you're in the waiting room
if candy snacks can satiate
your hunger for a richer fate
and the fleeting seems to end too soon
you know you're in the waiting room
if reaching for the stars you gasp
at desire just beyond your grasp
under overhead light of fluorescent moon
you know you're in the waiting room
Sunday, October 13, 2013
there's a fire in the rain
slow, soft, and steady
falls the rain;
a rhythm that lends itself
to stillness.
there was a time
for each drop
to spear my flesh;
as lightning spears an open sky.
my body.
open to receive your rain
-- forcefully, naturally,
you entered, and
we twisted into one.
now the rain falls soft.
your violence is far from me.
slick skin wrapped tightly; protection
from the elements
from your nature
to mine --
a pool of memories.
but the rain still falls.
slow, soft, and steady
falls the rain.
Wednesday, October 9, 2013
tired
eyes carry bags
that do not fit in
the overhead compartment
hands slip through
the cuff of each sleeve,
stiff as metal
nostrils pick up the scent of stale;
breadcrumbs on a wooded trail;
for someone to find;
to follow
ears pop;
a champagne toast,
to black leather studded sky,
to biker bars,
to topless cars
and women
enough to sleep under sheets
of paper moon fantasy,
of midlife freedom
in red and blue flashing crisis
down the road already traveled
on the other side of the median
in a town so small i can
barely
see
it
Saturday, September 28, 2013
does god daydream?
does god daydream?
a foaming mug of beer in hand;
glossy moonlit stare out the pub window
in the heat of summer;
tongue lolling to the side for want of drink
does god nightdream?
a starry winter eve neath
piles of patchwork quilts;
byproducts of his mother's sister's
half-hazard pastime
longing in the night
for a lover's hand to hold
beneath the pillow, white
for a lover's hand to hold
beneath the pillow, white
tight
for wanting
untold
unknown to the seraph
burning in his own passion.
does god daydream?
her lips pursed toward sky
blue with the dejection of a missed
kiss
an unrehearsed dialectic
a prophylactic:
dejection
an unexpected rejection
did you capture her attention?
the curve of your
lips
hips
signaling a "not yet"
a softly spoken regret
an untold story
unmooring
self from sellf's stability?
does god dream
of your wanting
of your nearness
of your fearless
approach
without reproach
a silhouette
a cabriolet
awaiting
anticipating
a waste of your time
a haste of mind
a crocus
blooming unfocused
in a place
of haste
spoiled
foiled by frustration
isolation
alone
a daydream
a day
a night
a dream
a god
a god
Thursday, September 26, 2013
prayers of a young poet
"The poets scattered You about;
a storm passed through their stammering-
but I want to gather You once more
in the vessel that pleases You."
-- Rilke
Rainer Maria Rilke knows something of the weight of words. They have the power both to make and unmake; to create and to crumble: "they are so far removed from us," he writes, "trapped in their eternal imprecision, indifferent with regard to our most urgent needs; they recoil at the moment when we seize them; they have their life and we have ours" (The Wisdom of Rilke).
And yet, Rilke wrote. Through the sieve of words he let the emotion and experiences of his life sift into poetry; merge with the words that so easily dissolve at the most delicate touch. What he describes in the stanza above as little more than a "stammer" is to us a glimpse at the heart of a poet's prayer.
In Paraclete Press' new book, Prayers of a Young Poet, Mark S. Burros translates sixty-seven of Rilke's poems from German, along with annotations Rilke penned when the words were originally written. Anyone who has read the biblical Psalms, or perhaps SAID's new book of contemporary psalms (99 psalms), knows that poetry has built a bridge between humankind and God for centuries. What is unique about Rilke's collection is the ingenuity of the author's perspective.
In Prayers of a Young Poet, Rilke imagines himself as a monk. He writes stories in poetry and prose through the voice of a cloistered man who experiences, in his daily living, the solitude that Rilke came to know so well- alone inside the writer's cell of his own mind and body. The narrative enfolds Rilke into the lines of his own poem; capturing his longing to be "the vessel that pleases [God]" (Prayers, 56).
In his Letters to a Young Poet, Rilke encourages the poet to "descend into yourself and your aloneness." These words resonate through Prayers of a Young Poet like a man who hears the solitary song of death at his door:
"I pass away, I pass away,
like sand running through the fingers of the hand.
And suddenly I have so many senses,
all in their different ways thirsting.
I feel myself swelling and aching
in a hundred places,
above all in the depths of my heart."
(Prayers, 24)
For those of you who are regular readers of this poetry blog, Under Sheets of Paper, you may have already sensed my own connection to Rilke (and to this book in particular) - if not simply in my author bio: "i imagine myself a monk in my cell. i light candles. i pray. i write poetry. i make love in my dreams," then perhaps in the spirit behind my posts, which is heavy with the anguish of dying and the hope of new life and resurrected love.
Rilke is to me a reminder that my poetry should leave more cracks in the words for light to seep through. If you have been searching for a companion on your own dark journey toward the light, I commend to you: Rilke's poems in Prayers of a Young Poet.
Thanks to Paraclete Press for inviting me to blog on this wonderful new book and be refreshed by the words of a fellow "poet-monk."
Thanks to Paraclete Press for inviting me to blog on this wonderful new book and be refreshed by the words of a fellow "poet-monk."
Tuesday, September 17, 2013
time will tell
she's a gossip, you know.
Time.
always twittering about
quick to let slip from her lips
the smallest grain of truth.
nudging her beak to sneak a peak
at yesterday.
rolling the seed between greedy fingers;
planting only those that will give life
to nostalgia.
she sets her watch by the sound of
resounding reminders;
alarms to warn her that she has
something to share:
a birthday of family deceased,
an anniversary of a massacre of the heart,
a strand of sorrow plucked from the head
of your history.
"Time will tell" they say.
Time will always tell
what you want to forget,
what you wish you had forgotten
to remember.
Wednesday, September 11, 2013
all i could ask for
it was all i could ask for,
you sitting there on that bar stool
talking to me about how people change.
under soft eyelashes
your rounded muscles flexed;
widening the space between
what you see in me and
what i see in your eyes:
brown hidden places
with specks of green distrust
a warm and playful golden glint;
bright as sun,
black as night,
blue as sky.
and a knowing,
a so much kindness,
a too much caring;
painfully indulgent,
beautifully painful.
you sitting there on that bar stool,
fingers tapping the half-pint of forgotten nectar,
smiling at me under a tuft of fringe;
it was all i could ask for.
Wednesday, September 4, 2013
in the inbetween
through the frosted window
hovering amidst the tulip bouquet
of cupid's clouds
i saw you in the inbetween --
where sleep was too quick for us
a flower for the casket
plucked by an ethereal finger
pointing to a petal plunging
with the weight of love lost
falling so far
i cannot see
where
she will
if she
will she
find
a home
or will she stay
here
with me
somewhere
in the inbetween
Tuesday, August 27, 2013
black
black and beautiful, beneath
the brazen gaze of her, zealous eyes
move the full, lips of a woman
full of laughter, full
of life, full
of the language of listening
with her ears tucked, behind
cheeks flushed to brown, blushing
before me, before
the one she hears with her listening, eyes
that speak to the richness, of her
chocolate heart, softened
by the warmth, of her heat
of her hand, holding
hand, waiting
for the words, to hear
the words, to speak
the words to touch, the tongue
to savor the sound of her, hope-
fullness of hopeful-
necess-itating
and she rings, out and
she is the voice, heard and
she is, seen and
she is
Saturday, August 24, 2013
belated
you could have said
"i want you too"
but you had other things to do
so i stood by
while you hid lies
and beauty in you slowly died
you could have said
"i'm sorry for..."
but you did not open that door
so i leaned my head
against the post
and longed for all that i missed most
your "thank you"
had its edges frayed
like "happy belated birthday"
inside my ears
i feel the sting
a clipping of desire's wings
"i'm grateful
that you let me go-
just thought that you might want to know"
Thursday, July 25, 2013
reality
to the office
to the store
a note to fix the creaking door
out to coffee
nothing more
i swear i've done all this before
off to yoga
off to church
hoping for something to work
wondering if there's a book
scroll my newsfeed
have a look
pass the salad
hold the salt
aiming for a healthy heart
no fantasies
there's no restart
once you think you've missed the mark
turn up the sheets
turn down the bed
don't forget to take your meds
my life is ticking in my head
a few more goes
and then you're dead
Sunday, July 21, 2013
trust
i trust you
like a lover's chord rapt in song;
like a lover's cord wrapped in song
around my throat.
Tuesday, July 9, 2013
come find me
when the pain of your hope has peaked
in you, strength and gentleness meet
and love no longer feels weak
come find me
when the light in her eyes grows dim
and you've courage enough to lead him
and the future no longer seems grim
come find me
there is shame in the walk of deceit
i hear the cadence of it in my feet
remember life lived in secrecy
recall how it has shaped me
when all that you knew has dissolved
in you, guilt and offenses absolve
and your weariness turns to resolve
come find me
when the kiss of your lips is true
and the eyes that see me have seen you
let your heart guide what you pursue
and come find me
Sunday, July 7, 2013
blurred
i gave you words
twas all i had
letters typed on a keypad
i had no hands
to pull you near
and redraw words that disappeared
i gave you words
sometimes too much
because i had no skin to touch
there were no lips
pressed to your head
to fill the space of words unsaid
i gave you words
do they still speak
though now the sound is faint and weak
i had no face
surreal and blurred
without one love is just a word
Wednesday, July 3, 2013
the elements
churns
stillest seas
a mighty wind
stillest seas
a mighty wind
frees
goods grounded
a commanding quake
goods grounded
a commanding quake
unearths
stuffs secure
a zealous flame
stuffs secure
a zealous flame
filters
unto purest form
and still...
a woman's wanting wields things weightier than these.
unto purest form
and still...
a woman's wanting wields things weightier than these.
Friday, June 28, 2013
dependence
beware
those who seek
speak
only after thought
sought
inside one's own home
thrown
into disarray
belay
and listen,
volition
the voice unheard
ungird
desires fed by
seeds
stomped under foot
put
into flight,
sight
only of the mind
kind
is the soul
told
to steal itself
health
found in the gaunting
wanting
heart that did not feed
need
for transcendence
dependence
Sunday, June 23, 2013
only a fool
I cannot know
what love is
until I have known
love, first
for myself.
I cannot share
knowledge of love
until I have received
love, first
for myself.
Only a fool
gives away love
not yet attained
for oneself.
for oneself.
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
breaking into blossom
Somedays,
when sun and cloud reach an agreement
and let you feel the coolness of a breeze touch your skin, move your hair
Something,
in that movement of air reminds you
that you are here, that you take up space on this earth; you are solid; you are
still alive
Somewhere,
along the way, you had forgotten
to pay attention to yourself, to feel
your feet on the ground,
to see that you have already begun to live again, to love again; to flex
another muscle, to take another step
Somehow,
what you have been searching for all
your life-- this moment of strength
has found you; redefining itself
in the gentle whisper of the wind
upon your face, breathed through the nose; the scent of what is to come
Sometimes,
you find yourself transformed,
on a street corner, in the town
where you live, on a windy day
of no consequence; other than that
it is the day
your heart is breaking
into blossom.
what i leave behind
if you were gone who would i be
i made your shit a part of me
your hands no longer touch my face
but when i sleep i feel their weight
the bruises of body and soul
know violence has made me whole
in briefest pauses of the day
assuring me i have to stay
and when i rise i soon forget
the aching cut of my regret
illusions that the pain won't last
in busyness of each day passed
if you were gone who would i be
how could i join humanity
when who i am is now defined
by all that i must leave behind
Monday, June 17, 2013
paper hearts
My writing you always encouraged
because of you i know it flourished
your struggle taught me i am flawed
thank you for wrestling with God
Talking always was your thing
you liked to know all my feelings
it was hard to listen to the chatter
but i'm glad you taught me feelings matter
Everything was near perfect
but my heart couldn't connect
thank you for letting love remain
when i couldn't do the same
Because of you i felt free
to be who i was made to be
you pointed me to lots of books
taught me to take a closer look
Each day with you took some convincing
i learned that words were not for mincing
you showed me that i could be strong
when i knew something was wrong
Even though our time was short
you were a comforting support
thank you for being kind to me
but thank you most for lavishing
Countless days i felt you near
even though you were not here
i learned to laugh and take lightly
those things i had once held tightly
how closely i read every page
and edited at every stage
now all my books are on the shelf
nothing to read except myself
what we’d sown
you were my favorite sweater
a laugh as soft as heather
a gaze as tough as leather
i'd never worn anything better
something was lost along the way
i'm not sure I could place the day
when you heard things I didn't say
and what we'd sown began to fray
now there are holes inside my head
fissured thoughts I cannot mend
words fall out and I pretend
that you miss me, my dearest friend
the heels of love
i came in close, brushed your soul
the place you keep impregnable
i found the door, there was no lock
Fear imprisoned without stocks
my presence there caused him to run
his eyes had rarely seen the sun
for so long he'd been enslaved
he felt exposed, he felt unsafe
i ran to him, and called him near
he was too occupied to hear
there was so much to take in
so hard to listen with the din
of voices raging in his head
untruths with which he had been fed
my words rang out, my voice was choked
"your name - it is not Fear, but Hope"
he spun around in recognition
of the name he had been given
when he was a little boy
before that word had been destroyed
by years of living in the pain,
the loneliness and the shame
"how dare you use that word for me-
telling me who i should be -
"who do you think you are" he said.
"i'm not some book that you have read-
you cannot know what i have known-
there is no Hope, i have no home-
"outside the chains that i have wrapped-
around my heart, leave it untapped-
for if my rage washed over you-
it would surely change you too."
eye-to-eye we stood for days
neither faltering the gaze
and when i spoke, the words flowed free
from the empty cage inside of me
"it's clear you wish i'd never come-
unbidden on the heels of Love,
what i set free you wanted sealed
what you held close i have revealed
"your secret is: you are not dead
found in the tears cried on your bed
Hope is still alive and well
just locked away inside this cell
"you renamed yourself as Fear
to scare those looking for you here
but i'm familiar with this tactic
for i too did once enact it
"My name is Trust," i said with care.
"i know that you don't want me there
inside the room you've built for one
but Love invited me to come
"she came by, you locked the door
she should have sent me here before
i know that her words sound petty
to one who feels they are not ready
"so i've come to you today
to see if you might let me stay
at least until Love reappears
i realize it could take years
"but i am patient, i am kind
as far as waiting, i don't mind
please look into my eyes and see
if Hope could learn to trust in me."
Friday, June 14, 2013
the sound of happiness
your eyes are laughing sapphires, glinting delight;
it softens me, to see you this way;
youth crawling through the lines on your nose, scrunching
between cheeks blushed to rose;
the eternity of a moment gone too soon;
lost in the hidden corner of a day;
dulling the tongue to words, forming
the sound of happiness.
Thursday, June 13, 2013
fury of a storm
there is a chilling wind, lifting
the skirt of God, glimpsing
the forbidden, uninvited
fury of a storm.
the jaded angels, grim
relieve themselves, thin
lines marking territory, here
is the line you shall not cross.
mirthless dance of trees, swaying
battered by rain, falling
onto leaves, leaking
as a faucet leaks, unwelcome
dripping down, wasted
running down, ragged
you are not welcome here.
the clouds brows narrow, piercing
light onto the face of sky, pointing
the way to stillness, grounding
the eye of the storm, watching
heaven see me, tumbling
as the thunder continues, rumbling
inside my chest, a grumbling
fury of a storm.
not to be
not for me but for who
not for she but for you
how do we read the clues
there she goes off again
not to be but to bend
not the knee but the pen
so to bleed not to mend
do we free or depend
do we heed or pretend
do we be or defend
now that we see the end
Tuesday, June 11, 2013
long loneliness
There is a space for me, prepared
on the overstuffed chair, in the corner
of the room; a beckoning cocoon
of air stale and pallor pale;
the long loneliness is settling in.
Curtains tucked in to crevices, dim
the dawning sun, another night done
another day strung like sheets on a string
the wind airing laundry clean;
the wind airing laundry clean;
i can feel the long loneliness settling in.
Can you feel it in the breeze, the solitude
of a sneeze, twitching the nose
a midday doze, in the corner on the chair
the cushion threadbare;
the long loneliness is settling in.
Monday, June 10, 2013
the song i cannot hear
the ivory of his eyes are the color of the keys he pushes, his fingers
into the skin of the beast he aims to tame, her
black coat, thick and sheen covering her
teeth, lifting only to purr along to the humming of his throat
lifting to bare a groan, a grimace, cavernous inside
his baritone, bracing white chatter to the highest pitch
of his right hand, caressing her lips
she sings for him, and i listen
to the sound of quiet ring through, the heels
of my feet, their tumbling duet quakes
within my chest, opening my ears to the song
they play, the song i cannot hear
Sunday, June 9, 2013
Q&A
Get us through the day,
Respond to nagging nuisance,
And send us on our way.
Answers ease a wrestless soul,
And calm emotion's seas,
Give shape to understanding;
Pacify inquiry.
But answer needs a question
To make it worth it's work
And question beckons answer;
Each invite the other's birth.
Answers seem to have a knack
For sweet brevity,
But out of question's rambling
Flows creativity.
They intertwine like lovers
Caught in intense romance.
Our answers and our questions
Spin in a ceaseless dance.
Friday, June 7, 2013
this earth.
each blade stands erect, arms
outstretched, head touching sky,
feet touching earth.
this earth.
this north carolina soil is, rich
with the bodies of the dead, relationships
whose memories have rotted, sunk deep
into mud.
can i stand erect, arms
outstretched, head touching sky, feet touching
this earth
where my dead have fallen, deep
like the roots of my toes under the loam, diving down
and curious whether life or death can be found in the dark
and wet, will i wilt with this rain
or reach for the sun that burns, as the heat
of lovers has burned, forcing scalded skin
to seek shade under the arms of those who have grown taller, than me
under green leaves thick with the diet of
this earth.
can i eat from the table set before me, can i drink
from the cup that floods with rain, as others have drunk
their pain, their tears pushed down the face of ashen sky
in remembrance of the dead, the dead of
this earth,
i call home.
Wednesday, June 5, 2013
lullaby
Hush, beautiful, close your eyes
I’m gonna sing you a lullaby
And if that song doesn’t calm your mind
I’m gonna whisper words so kind
And if my words can’t touch your soul
I’m gonna give you my hand to hold
And if my fingers cannot soothe
I’m gonna kiss your skin so smooth
And if my lips won’t make you smile
I’m gonna lay right here for a while
And if my heat won’t warm your heart
I'm gonna love you from afar
And if my love can’t pierce this night
I’m gonna wait til it turns light
And if the sun on you won’t shine
I’m still gonna wish that you were mine
tick, tock
tick, tock
tick, tock
tick tock goes the clock
it's so onomatopoetic
that it's giving me a headache
i can feel time clicking her tongue
tsk, tosk
tsk, tosk
her hands on her hips, what i wouldn't give
for her hands on my hips, as i sip from her lips
on the tips of my own
for an infusion of life
for a taste of time's tongue
for a twiterpation
for syncopation
of her clock and mine
to keep time ticking
with her licking
hands sticking
will someone fricking
stop this clock from tricking, my mind
into thinking i am fine here, on my own
alone
tick, tock
tick, tock
Sunday, June 2, 2013
the fellowship of suffering
i let you in
to the chasm between us that echoes a din
of air too thick; conversation too thin
in my loneliness
i open the door
to internal suffering i have to endure
and enter into the hole, which i bore
in my loneliness
i find you near
from out of the deep blackness you softly appear
in meeting myself i overcome fear
in loneliness
i learn
i am, in fact, here
Sunday, May 19, 2013
these arms
there is a time for us to share
expressions of the heart
when flooding lips fall words like rain
right at the journey's start
with certainty trip into love
face first and arms outstretched
we fall into each other's depths
trusting two hands to catch
but silence always has her say
time quietly unearths
the tender injuries and scars
brought on by love's first birth
questions arise, judgments are made
the impulse is to run
back to the the safe security
we've always known and done
but in stillness speaks a whisper
so meek it's rarely heard
"instead of closing, open up"
how gentle come the words
so muster all your strength, release
unnecessary fear
deep down you know this is the voice
you've always yearned to hear
it echoes from the sorest place
inside your aching soul
if it's where the pain is sharpest
it's where the wound is old
there is a time for us to share
for words off tongues to roll
but after all is said and done
comes time for arms to hold
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