Saturday, September 28, 2013

does god daydream?


does god daydream?

a foaming mug of beer in hand;
glossy moonlit stare out the pub window
in the heat of summer;
tongue lolling to the side for want of drink

does god nightdream?

a starry winter eve neath
piles of patchwork quilts;
byproducts of his mother's sister's
half-hazard pastime

longing in the night
for a lover's hand to hold
beneath the pillow, white
tight
for wanting
untold
unknown to the seraph 
burning in his own passion.

does god daydream?
her lips pursed toward sky
blue with the dejection of a missed
kiss
an unrehearsed dialectic
a prophylactic:
dejection 
an unexpected rejection

did you capture her attention?
the curve of your
lips
hips

signaling a "not yet"
a softly spoken regret
an untold story
unmooring 
self from sellf's stability?

does god dream 
of your wanting
of your nearness 
of your fearless
approach
without reproach

a silhouette
a cabriolet 
awaiting
anticipating 

a waste of your time 
a haste of mind
a crocus 
blooming unfocused

in a place 
of haste
spoiled 
foiled by frustration
isolation

alone
a daydream 
a day
a night

a dream
a god 

Thursday, September 26, 2013

prayers of a young poet


"The poets scattered You about;
a storm passed through their stammering-
but I want to gather You once more
in the vessel that pleases You."
--  Rilke

Rainer Maria Rilke knows something of the weight of words. They have the power both to make and unmake; to create and to crumble: "they are so far removed from us," he writes, "trapped in their eternal imprecision, indifferent with regard to our most urgent needs; they recoil at the moment when we seize them; they have their life and we have ours" (The Wisdom of Rilke).

And yet, Rilke wrote. Through the sieve of words he let the emotion and experiences of his life sift into poetry; merge with the words that so easily dissolve at the most delicate touch. What he describes in the stanza above as little more than a "stammer" is to us a glimpse at the heart of a poet's prayer. 

In Paraclete Press' new book, Prayers of a Young Poet, Mark S. Burros translates sixty-seven of Rilke's poems from German, along with annotations Rilke penned when the words were originally written. Anyone who has read the biblical Psalms, or perhaps SAID's new book of contemporary psalms (99 psalms), knows that poetry has built a bridge between humankind and God for centuries. What is unique about Rilke's collection is the ingenuity of the author's perspective. 

In Prayers of a Young Poet, Rilke imagines himself as a monk. He writes stories in poetry and prose through the voice of a cloistered man who experiences, in his daily living, the solitude that Rilke came to know so well- alone inside the writer's cell of his own mind and body. The narrative enfolds Rilke into the lines of his own poem; capturing his longing to be "the vessel that pleases [God]" (Prayers, 56).

In his Letters to a Young Poet, Rilke encourages the poet to "descend into yourself and your aloneness." These words resonate through Prayers of a Young Poet like a man who hears the solitary song of death at his door:

"I pass away, I pass away,
like sand running through the fingers of the hand.
And suddenly I have so many senses, 
all in their different ways thirsting.
I feel myself swelling and aching
in a hundred places,
above all in the depths of my heart."
(Prayers, 24)

For those of you who are regular readers of this poetry blog, Under Sheets of Paper, you may have already sensed my own connection to Rilke (and to this book in particular) - if not simply in my author bio: "i imagine myself a monk in my cell. i light candles. i pray. i write poetry. i make love in my dreams," then perhaps in the spirit behind my posts, which is heavy with the anguish of dying and the hope of new life and resurrected love. 

Rilke is to me a reminder that my poetry should leave more cracks in the words for light to seep through. If you have been searching for a companion on your own dark journey toward the light, I commend to you: Rilke's poems in Prayers of a Young Poet.

Thanks to Paraclete Press for inviting me to blog on this wonderful new book and be refreshed by the words of a fellow "poet-monk."

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

time will tell


she's a gossip, you know.

Time.

always twittering about
quick to let slip from her lips
the smallest grain of truth.
nudging her beak to sneak a peak
at yesterday.
rolling the seed between greedy fingers;
planting only those that will give life
to nostalgia.

she sets her watch by the sound of
resounding reminders;
alarms to warn her that she has
something to share:
a birthday of family deceased,
an anniversary of a massacre of the heart,
a strand of sorrow plucked from the head
of your history.

"Time will tell" they say.

Time will always tell
what you want to forget,
what you wish you had forgotten
to remember.

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

all i could ask for



it was all i could ask for,
you sitting there on that bar stool
talking to me about how people change.

under soft eyelashes
your rounded muscles flexed;
widening the space between
what you see in me and
what i see in your eyes:

brown hidden places
with specks of green distrust
a warm and playful golden glint;
bright as sun,
black as night,
blue as sky.

and a knowing,
a so much kindness,
a too much caring;
painfully indulgent,
beautifully painful.

you sitting there on that bar stool,
fingers tapping the half-pint of forgotten nectar,
smiling at me under a tuft of fringe;
it was all i could ask for.

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

in the inbetween



i soared above the sun and saw you sparkling
through the frosted window
hovering amidst the tulip bouquet
of cupid's clouds

i saw you in the inbetween --
where sleep was too quick for us
a flower for the casket
plucked by an ethereal finger

pointing to a petal plunging
with the weight of love lost
falling so far
i cannot see

where
she will
if she
will she
find
a home

or will she stay
here
with me
somewhere
in the inbetween