monster

when we loved did you grow smaller
when we laughed did a part of you die
was my joy your hell
your delight, my pain

you are a monster
invisible and ever-present
threatening and mute
you are sinister
you are ugly

beware, Oh the beautiful
her pleasure is to frighten
intentionally, deliberately
you are dangerous
you are deathly

I live in a wordless world
a saturated silence
all is quiet, sickeningly still
but my ears can hear you screaming